Showing posts with label self realization. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self realization. Show all posts

Friday, October 14, 2011

Learning to Live with Grey Areas

Grey Areas - They're especially tough for me.  Everything is so much simpler when it's black and white.  Right or wrong. Yes or no.   When your thoughts tend to be as crowded as mine, those grey areas become a layer of Dead Sea mud in the Missouri River of my thinking.

Grey Areas are uncertainties.  They're effusive, elusive and shifting.  They're not outlined like coloring book pictures.  Their shapes are nebulous and move like smoke or water.  Bottom line:  The complete lack of definition in Grey Areas are unsettling for me.

Over the years I've come to realize that I am a grey area

I am also constantly changing, adapting and learning new ways of flowing through this space and around the lives of others.  Often I've run into great walls of rock solid opinions or cliffs of my own making.  I may have splashed, like a great wave upon someone else's shore, only to find that I've created the jagged peaks simply by my over-aggressive approach.  At other times I've encountered tranquil lagoons of stillness in others, where I wanted to stay, but the currents running through me made it impossible to remain so calm.

Lately my own Grey Areas are returning to a more centered, even flow.  While my shores and boundaries may shift, I am aware of my own banks and will more often take the path of least resistance.  I am still learning to keep more of myself together rather than splitting off into emotional or creative tributaries.  I am still learning to moderate how my will is perceived by others - to try to be aware of when my opinion is a tsunami or a changing of the tides - and to adjust.


Thursday, September 29, 2011

HELLLLOOOOOO!!!

HELLLOOOOO!!!


Today is the first day I actually sit down and write on my new blog.  (Love that new blog smell! - I wonder if I can find that in a fragrance oil for a new batch of soap?)  I really have to stress that updates to this thing may be sporadic, much like my facebook page.  I may make 5 entries one day and then nothing for the next two weeks.  I'm ADD like that.


I hope you'll bear/bare with me as I imagine that many of my posts might sound a lot like me talking to myself or just thinking out loud. Which I really do a lot of anyway, so it'll be just like sitting next to me while I'm on the computer, except you'll get a peek at my left and right hemispheres too.  Fun stuff, right?


Whenever I think of blogging, I'm reminded of the Despair guys and their posters, (which have been known to make me cry laughing) but in this case the one that says:
Never before have so many people with so little to say said so much to so few.
(Small delay here while I spend 20 minutes looking at all the funnies on their site.)


So hopefully I'll be the witty, touching, eloquent writer that captures your attention and makes you long for my next post.  But it's more likely that I'll just ramble about stuff or post links to things I find amusing or intellectually stimulating, or useful, or just plain absurd...   
Warmest regards.
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